I often sit and wonder, what is life? How do people enter and suddenly leave you all by yourself, when you have no one to rely on or to support you? These people are the ones who are there in our lives because we learn lessons from them about life or about ourselves. Life is different for everyone.Some have passion for doing something extra ordinary and some just want to be ordinary. Some enjoy and savor every moment but some let every moment go and it doesn’t matter much to them. These people are tired of how cruel this world has been to them. They have the pain of being alone and staying lonely.
As a 15-year old I would describe life as a box of crayons. Every day you pick one and color different pictures, some end up as big disasters while some pictures are which you want to keep with you forever as a memory. They are your own masterpieces.
There are some people who matter to you so much that you can make any sacrifice for them but you have to be careful sometimes because this world isn’t a happy place to be. It’s not always rainbows and unicorns every time.
This world is two faced. Every person wears a mask, they seem as if they are very happy and everything in their life is beautiful but the face they hide from the world is of pain, fear and emotions. Only some understand what you are going through while some just pretend as if they are always there for you.Double faced people will pretend to be your friend but actually will backstab you when you are vulnerable. They are selfish.
Being alone and lonely are two very different things, alone is what you make yourself while lonely is what others make you feel. It’s the feeling that no one cares for you anymore. Being all alone makes you lose the tendency to share your feelings and emotions with others. It gets difficult for you to trust others because a part of you knows that maybe later you will be betrayed.
The phases and reality of life are difficult to understand but for those who have true emotions, it’s just a piece of cake! To set up a good, happy and an easy life you should give time to everything especially your family and friends. At times you just want to give up everything including your life because you think you are not strong anymore but believe me a lot of people dream of having your life.
Having low self esteem is not good but you should admit that not everyone likes you. Maybe you being perfect in everything will make them hate you but you must have confidence in yourself. Bad things will happen to you, maybesomeone will say or do something mean to you, a friendship will dissolve, or maybe you will lose someone who was attached to your soul but always remember that life is trying to teach you something. Your life is telling you something new, something you are experiencing for the first time.
You should live your life to the fullest. Clear up your mind and be open and see the world from a different perspective. Be more focused on being yourself and being independent, start everyday with a fresh look, discover the purpose of living, be positive and believe in yourself….. Don’t just exist, live!
Love yourself. Love others. Love your life.
Hajra Irfan Syed